Lilac leaf

This morning I was back under the poppies, sat down in the same chair that I sat in until the library closed last night.
I have this lump in my stomach and I haven’t been able to sleep. It’s like I know it’s in me, but when I need it I suddenly can’t bring it out. (Deadlines always used to work on me.) I had an unexpected visitor yesterday, a friend arriving straight from abroad to sit at my kitchen table drinking tea and talking about things like death and relationships and mucking out shit from a barn in England. It was great.

highpoint of Today: hanging out with little Sara. She rocks.

favourite word of today: syrenbuskblad